Right Guys I'm back.. *starts singing Eminem song*
Okay so again I've been away and posted nothing but instagram things. Yes I know I'm awful at posting every week. However i have a reason why. Warning you now be ready for some emotional and personal parts of this explanation.
(back story) When i was a kid, my mum worked a lot in London, so i never really saw her apart from occasional weekend or late at night. I basically grew up with my grandparents. They were the ones who took me to school and picked me up, took me to dance every week, fed me etc... I'm not saying i didn't have a good relationship with my mum, i did, i just didn't see her as much as i saw them.
Growing up my dad wasn't around, Grandpa was like a father to me.It was him who taught me to look right and left when crossing the street, he was the man who introduced me to chips, pringles and ASDA. Bit weird but hey a girl has to know these things. I can always remember hearing him say 'quick march' before crossing roads even if it wasn't a busy road he would just say it. My grandparents took me to my first few pantomimes and musicals this is what made me fall in love with theatre and drama.
Unfortunately, my Grandpa had a lot of things wrong with him. He was a smoker years ago which resulted in him having bad lungs. He had arthritis, and suffered a heart attack a few years back. However, at no point did he give up fighting. He loved his family so because of that lead his life all the way to 81.
My Grandpa passed away on the 4th of January 2015.
He made his 81st Birthday on New Years Day and spent his last few moments with the whole family around him (literally under the same roof) even though he struggled to open his presents, everyone could see the happiness on his face. It's probably weird to say but it was the right time for him to go, we were all there to support my Grandma (my other half of the family live in Singapore, they were due to leave back the day of his death) if we hadn't been she would have had to deal with it alone. I was told that his passing away was so peaceful, he had troubles breathing at the last point but that night he seemed to be breathing perfectly. Luckily he was at home with us instead of being in hospital where he would have been so unhappy, so i guess that makes us lot feel better about things.
It's just been a bit hard for me, losing someone who i was so close too in a matter of seconds. I didn't celebrate my birthday which was on the 6th because it didn't feel right, knowing he wasn't there. For a while i haven't been very sociable. But i'm getting there, my whole family are so grateful for the support and lovingness people have given us.
I just hope this explains a few things.
This is Grandpa on his 80th Birthday- Last year
